Week 6

[Porsche Briggs]

Yeah way to start off the week ding dong

I waited all day to do my HOH until the house was quiet and I could sit and post. I love endurance it's my fave. Restarted the computer turned off AIM everything was running well and I began. And in minute 3 the virus program decided it wanted to do a weekly scan and opened freezing everything up for over a minute ending my HOH try before I really started. So needless to say I am really upset that happened especially since I was so excited to start it. Oh well nothing I can do about it now it just sucks since I know I could have done so much better

Oh well nothing I can do now it just really makes me mad!

[Porsche Briggs]

So glad that Renny won HOH!!! I am looking forward to this week's veto comp hopefully all will go as planned and Parker will be evicted this week! I love how he runs his mouth about what a moron I am just because I have different opinions on the game as him yet starts talking to me again when he is on the block! Too little too late. I have promised Steven my vote for him to stay if noms stay the same and I really hope that they do!

[Porsche Briggs]

I have been totally slacking in the DR department! So Parker has been evicted which is great for me as he told Nicole he was coming after me. I like how he tried hard to get Nicole to use the veto on him and when she didn't asked to be evicted. It's obvious he wanted to feel like he had a say in the matter. What is wrong with people and the big egos?

Anyway, I have been having a lot of problems with Jun. A few nights ago she came to me saying she is jealous of Dustin. She said her heart would be broken if she had worked so hard and if he were to last longer than her. Is this the new poor me cry me a river strategy? So she goes on to say that if she wins HOH not to sound bitchy but she won't be social that week? Someone is a bit power hungry! I heard she told Nicole that she would keep her HOH room to herself so she can use it to think. Ok fine her choice but Nicole and I are now wondering just what she needs to think about. We believe that she may have Steven thinking that they are working together on the side perhaps.

Jun keeps telling me that shes playing for All Stars and I guess she told Nicole that too. I am trying to play the current game in the now. Her being so determined to pay in all stars has me worried she will try and make some out there move or something. It's obvious she is working everyone to make sure that she will be picked for F2 regardless and that doesn't sit well with me. Jun asked me for a F3 deal with her and Nicole. I found out today that neither Nicole or I committed to that deal. I don't want to make a promise that I don't think I want to keep it's not fair to Jun for me to make an official final deal with her.

Here is the kicker, Jun actually told Nicole that Jun and I have a F2 deal!! We don't. Way back we had talked about wanting to be in F2 together possibly and that was before I really started to see her strategy unfold. I made no official commitment and didn't even accept her F3 deal offer when it was made. Regardless if we did or didn't why would you tell that to someone? Nicole doesn't want to knowingly play for 3rd place! When it got down to the 5 Slayers Nicole would have probably nominated me to split up Jun and I. That seriously pisses me off and I am glad that Nicole told me about it. We have talked a lot today and we both seem to see the real picture here.

I think I have been making things too personal and I if I want to try and win this game I need to get myself into the mindset that this is a game and I will have to make choices to better my game even if I have to make the tough choices of targeting those that I am really close to. Renny offered a F4 deal that I did accept. It is with myself, Renny, Sarah, and Dustin. I want to play with who I think will help me get to the end and who I think deserves it the most. Jun is out for herself and is becoming way too power hungry. She even told Dustin that if she wins HOH this week he will be her pawn and then was upset that if he were to win that he would do the same. I don't think you should ever tell someone that they will be a pawn or make any comments like that if you do not have the HOH title. That obviously puts a target on her if Dustin is to win the HOH.

Sarah was the first person that I ever talked to in this game and even before we had an official alliance we have had each others back in the game. When she was first on the block if she didn't win veto I was trying to help her make sure she had the votes to stay. She is good at comps, she is very social, a very all around nice person, and I trust her. Renny is just the sweetest classiest lady there is. She speaks her mind, isn't afraid to go against someone if she doesn't agree with them and I trust her totally. Dustin has not won any comps yet but in talking to him he loves and respects this game very much. Social game is also a great strategy and he is VERY social. I know that a lot of people have called him annoying but I don't feel that way about him at all. I think he is s great kid

Anyhow I am at this point totally frustrated. Jun tells Nicole after telling me if she wins HOH she wont be social that week, that she wont be inviting us to her HOH room so she can think. She obviously wouldn't need to think if she were following the plans we had talked about all along. She has totally messed up her game and by telling people we have a F2 she is messing up mine as well. I'm not dealing with a loose cannon when I have worked so hard to be here in this game