Post by Nicole Schaffrich on Oct 26, 2011 23:38:16 GMT -6
So guess what, kids? Jordan is back in the game! ...Which basically means that I'm in big trouble if one of the Zombie Slayers doesn't win HoH. I messaged Jordan when her victory was first announced and I was straight-up and honest with her: I congratulated her on earning her spot back in the game and told her that I would understand if she decided to come after me. Last night, I got the chance to talk with Jordan and she was quick to bring up my decision to nominate her with the DPoV. She told me that she understood my decision and didn't hold it against me. More importantly, she told me that she wasn't planning to target me. Is this too good to be true? The more that I think about it, the more faith I put in the notion that there are likely only four potential avenues that Jordan can take now that she's back in the house.
The first (and most obvious) path is to target me. I'm the one who is ultimately responsible for eliminating Jordan in the first place. I can pass the buck and say that I was pressured by Jun, Porsche, and Renny, but ultimately, it was my decision and my responsibility. So it's my fault. I would understand if Jordan decided to come after me; it would be both a measure of vengeance and an effective game move to eliminate a socially active and competitive player like me. And, in all honesty, I wouldn't be surprised if Jordan nominated me in the case that she won HoH.
The second possibility is that Jordan will target Porsche. Porsche told me that she believed Jordan was cheating in her redemption challenge against Ragan (and from the sounds of it, I believe her). Jordan's side of the story, however, asserts that she merely told Porsche that she was competing in the same challenge being used for HoH, and that Porsche tried to have her expelled from the game. As far as technicalities and cheating go, I'm not involved in that aspect of the game and I don't intend to get involved in it. But both Jordan and Porsche seem very riled up about it, which might mean that Jordan would go after Porsche, sparing me from being the target.
The third possibility that I considered is that this entire feud between Porsche and Jordan is staged. Maybe they've struck a deal and are trying to deflect attention away from one another by convincing us that they're at each other's throats. If that's the case, who is Jordan's (and, by extension, Porsche's) real target?
And that leads me to what I imagine would be Jordan's fourth and final avenue now that she has returned to the game. Maybe she's planning to do something that I haven't even yet considered and that has nothing to do with me. Maybe she intends to target Karen for being significantly less active (something to which she's referred in conversation). Or maybe she intends to do something entirely unexpected. Who knows?
The point is, if Jordan wins HoH, I have no clue what she'll do…and I give her credit for keeping me on my toes. I hope that I'm safe this week, no matter what. I have an inherent fear of winning HoH (especially as the number of houseguests dwindles) because I don't want to upset people, but it's a part of the game. I'll admit it's so much harder than I anticipated…and I'm much more compassionate (who knew?) than I ever imagined. But the game calls for it and I have to be willing to cut throats. Otherwise, what the hell am I doing here?
I do want to mention one point about April's eviction. She accused me of being a floater during her eviction, and that's something to which I take serious exception. I don't believe that I'm a floater in any sense in this game. Granted, I've never won an HoH or PoV competition, but I've performed very well in almost every challenge. And I don't oscillate between groups or alliances; I just happen to be friendly. I have my core alliance, and I have genuine relationships with other people. Moreover, I'm trying my best to play a strategically sound game. And I'm absolutely willing (albeit afraid) to get blood on my hands, which I did when I evicted Jordan. All of these things are what make me the polar opposite of a floater. If anything, April was the floater; she rarely talked game, never formed alliances, performed poorly in competitions (the Veto she won was, in actuality, mere luck), and had no real strategy. April was the kind of player who wanted to live for the moment, regardless of the outcome. I, on the other hand, look at the bigger picture. I already made a big move (arguably the biggest so far) in this game, so now, it's time for me to lay low, strengthen bonds, and bide my time. That doesn't make me a floater, kiddo; it makes me a smart player.
The first (and most obvious) path is to target me. I'm the one who is ultimately responsible for eliminating Jordan in the first place. I can pass the buck and say that I was pressured by Jun, Porsche, and Renny, but ultimately, it was my decision and my responsibility. So it's my fault. I would understand if Jordan decided to come after me; it would be both a measure of vengeance and an effective game move to eliminate a socially active and competitive player like me. And, in all honesty, I wouldn't be surprised if Jordan nominated me in the case that she won HoH.
The second possibility is that Jordan will target Porsche. Porsche told me that she believed Jordan was cheating in her redemption challenge against Ragan (and from the sounds of it, I believe her). Jordan's side of the story, however, asserts that she merely told Porsche that she was competing in the same challenge being used for HoH, and that Porsche tried to have her expelled from the game. As far as technicalities and cheating go, I'm not involved in that aspect of the game and I don't intend to get involved in it. But both Jordan and Porsche seem very riled up about it, which might mean that Jordan would go after Porsche, sparing me from being the target.
The third possibility that I considered is that this entire feud between Porsche and Jordan is staged. Maybe they've struck a deal and are trying to deflect attention away from one another by convincing us that they're at each other's throats. If that's the case, who is Jordan's (and, by extension, Porsche's) real target?
And that leads me to what I imagine would be Jordan's fourth and final avenue now that she has returned to the game. Maybe she's planning to do something that I haven't even yet considered and that has nothing to do with me. Maybe she intends to target Karen for being significantly less active (something to which she's referred in conversation). Or maybe she intends to do something entirely unexpected. Who knows?
The point is, if Jordan wins HoH, I have no clue what she'll do…and I give her credit for keeping me on my toes. I hope that I'm safe this week, no matter what. I have an inherent fear of winning HoH (especially as the number of houseguests dwindles) because I don't want to upset people, but it's a part of the game. I'll admit it's so much harder than I anticipated…and I'm much more compassionate (who knew?) than I ever imagined. But the game calls for it and I have to be willing to cut throats. Otherwise, what the hell am I doing here?
I do want to mention one point about April's eviction. She accused me of being a floater during her eviction, and that's something to which I take serious exception. I don't believe that I'm a floater in any sense in this game. Granted, I've never won an HoH or PoV competition, but I've performed very well in almost every challenge. And I don't oscillate between groups or alliances; I just happen to be friendly. I have my core alliance, and I have genuine relationships with other people. Moreover, I'm trying my best to play a strategically sound game. And I'm absolutely willing (albeit afraid) to get blood on my hands, which I did when I evicted Jordan. All of these things are what make me the polar opposite of a floater. If anything, April was the floater; she rarely talked game, never formed alliances, performed poorly in competitions (the Veto she won was, in actuality, mere luck), and had no real strategy. April was the kind of player who wanted to live for the moment, regardless of the outcome. I, on the other hand, look at the bigger picture. I already made a big move (arguably the biggest so far) in this game, so now, it's time for me to lay low, strengthen bonds, and bide my time. That doesn't make me a floater, kiddo; it makes me a smart player.
